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Just | When Humility Goes Wrong

8/17/2014

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Back when I worked in an office (circa 2003/2004) I was "just" an office supervisor. Then I was "just" an advertising salesperson at a local paper. Next, I was "just" a photography salesperson moonlighting as a wedding photographer ... Followed by "just" a wedding photographer. I wasn't trying to be humble; I rarely felt at ease telling people what I did for a living.

The problem with dis-ease about our titles or roles is it often covers carried shame about how we spend our life's time. And, in this case, shame indicates perhaps a bad fit more than something shameful. For some of you one of my former jobs may be your dream job. It's a giant matter of perspective.

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Yesterday when my husband, a friend, and I went to view a potential property for living in community I played the scenario of introducing ourselves to the rental agent in my mind.

"Hi, I'm Christine. I'm an artist. This is my husband, an entrepreneur. And our friend Ferdinand*, a ship captain and missionary."

And I was amazed how true those roles are for each of us in literal and metaphorical ways. Later I remembered one of the first times I was named by someone I'm not blood related to. He said I was a seeker of God, one who desires to know him. Later I was called a truth teller. Then another person named me avant garde, and patient teacher. And most recently I was given the name artist. These people see me. They observe a true thing about me and say it back. It's lovely, healing, and shame breaking.

These names are but reflections of my identity. None of them alone holds the whole truth of me (just as for my husband and friend). The whole truth of me is summed up in: Christine, beloved of Jesus. However, these reflections from my loved ones say something true of me.

So I wonder, when I used to say "just" XYZ and let shame rule me, was I insecure about the names I chose for myself - knowing they weren't true fits to who I am and how I've been created. Like having a tailor fit you, nothing feels better than a well made garment created for you alone. Because my experience with these friends giving voice to my heart's cry feels better than anything I've ever created or made for myself.

*Name changed to protect the sea worthy.

Talk with me...

  • Who has named you?
  • What does it feel like when you try on a new identity?
  • How do you know when something is a good fit for you?
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Where it All Began  |  Canon AE-1 & A Roll Film

8/11/2014

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A few months back, in January, when I began traveling for my Kickstarter project Epiphany : Visio I largely carried my faithful Canon 5D camera and a couple of lenses. However, when we traveled to Montreal, Canada I also brought my very first camera - a Canon AE-1 (made around the same year I was born). I put a couple of rolls through it, but honestly I forgot about them. Out of sight, out of mind, when working on a large scale project. So when I stumbled upon the unprocessed rolls months later I forgot what was on them. I had them processed, and then scanned to digital by Bailey Fine Art Printing in Signal Hill. And I was amazed at the depth of the photographs. There is an added layer of feeling that I haven't often seen on even my favorite pro-digital SLR camera.

Talk to me... what do you see in the photograph? What's there? What's missing? Where is it going? I'd love it if you'd share in the comments if something comes up for you.

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Photograph taken at the Mount Royal Cemetery in Montreal, Canada. Image © 2014 Christine Lee Smith.
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