When I took the Strengths Finder 2.0 test a couple years ago one of my top five strengths showed up as Connector, which means I see how things and concepts relate. Due to my other strengths, input and learner, I collect resources, books, and information like nobody's business. So this week after hearing about upcoming books on vocation and discernment I began thinking how these concepts relate.
Along my journey these past few years trying to figure out who I am created to be the idea of vocation and discernment have come up often, and have proven helpful in my understanding of how I best journey with Jesus.
Helpful, but not efficient.
As a young adult I wanted to have the wisdom of Solomon, and the passion of David, which sounds a little contradictory to my internal family script. Emotions were viewed more as hinderances than helpful in decision making.
Yet, as I've grown I've learned by experience how necessary emotions or feelings are in decision making. Important not because of any truth they reveal, but crucial because they can be the keys to understanding our wants, desires, and responses to circumstances. It seems like more often, when choosing between two or more "good" options, the wise choice could be made in either direction. The point of discernment lies at the heart of what is leading you toward or away from any of the options. This is where emotion enters the decision making process.
Once you've vetted your options for clearly destructive choices, what you're left with is you and how you feel about your choices and options. At this point we can enter the desires and hesitations asking what is actually driving us. We can take a step back and ask: In this decision, am I being driven or drawn towards an option?
Taking time to examine our motives in our choice is scary. I can't say it always makes me feel good. Often I see the ickyness of my desire to be liked based off of how I present myself rather than who I am. But as I take time to consider what I am feeling, I am enabled to conciously choose. And that is a step into wisdom.